I have been reading on a forum called for at least a year and a half, and it depresses me to read about how many of them have experiences that I can only dream about. I mean come on, all I am asking for is a boyfriend. I just want to have someone to talk to and have fun with. I want to enjoy their company and likewise.
It seems that I can't even find that though. The problem that I have is figuring out if they are gay or not. Where I live, you just can't go up to someone and ask if they are gay. I sometimes really get started on this topic and I won't let it go.
It is really sad to see people at school with someone that they can care about while I am left all alone with my friends that don't even know that I am gay. It hurts when I hear one of them say something horrible about gays, and I can't even let them know. It can make you feel like the most isolated person on the planet.